As I stand at the threshold of my 55th birthday, I can’t help but reflect. The past decade fills me with marvel at the journey it’s been. From ages 45 to 55, these years have been an intense cycle of death and rebirth. Each phase has left its mark on the person I am today. I remember feeling trapped in a never-ending loop, where each ending seemed more final than the last. But now, as I embrace this double-nickel milestone, I feel a profound sense of readiness to live my best life.
Life is not so much about the chapters we expect. It is more about the ones we don’t. Over these years, I’ve experienced loss that felt insurmountable. Whether it was the passing of loved ones or the end of relationships I thought would last a lifetime, each loss demanded a part of me. Yet, it is in these moments of profound grief that I discovered a strength I didn’t know I possessed. For with every ending came a rebirth, a chance to redefine who I am and what I stand for.
This decade has been a journey of spiritual awakening. There were days I felt like a caterpillar. I was wrapped tightly in a cocoon of my own making. I was unsure if I would ever emerge. But emerge I did, with a new lens through which to view life, love, and relationships. I’ve learned to see into the nature of things as they really are. I shed illusions. I embraced truths, no matter how uncomfortable.
Love, in particular, has taken on new meaning. I’ve learned that love is not a possession, but a presence. It’s less about holding on and more about letting go—of expectations, of fears, of preconceived notions. It’s about being present, truly present, with another person, and with myself. The relationships I cherish now are those built on authenticity and mutual respect. In these relationships, vulnerability is not a weakness. Instead, it is a strength.
As I step into this new beginning, I do so with a heart full of gratitude and hope. I’m ready to embrace whatever comes next with open arms and an open heart. Life has taught me that I am resilient. I can withstand life’s tempests and still find beauty in the aftermath. This is the start of something beautiful. I welcome it with the wisdom that comes from living through ten years of transformation.
Here’s to the next chapter, to living my best life, and to seeing the world anew.
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